journal entry # 4

Today has been a long and tiring day. For starters, I received a phone call from my daughter's Pre-K teacher saying that my daughter hadn't been listening since the middle of last week. So needless to say my daughter is grounded. Grounded in our house means that she has to sit on the couch without anything to play or entertain herself with. She doesn't get to watch any cartoons or have any say in what we watch. So as I'm sitting here trying to concentrate and get part of my homework done, I am also listening to a 4 year old who is stuck on the couch. It's not that she is being bad, just that she is bored so she is feeling extra chatty today.

My fiance owns his own drywall company and I help him sometimes at work when he needs the extra help. Monday and Tuesday, none of his help showed up for work so I have been helping him this week and now my back is on fire and my arms feel like they are going to fall off. I am no wuss when it comes to pain. However, I am only 97 lbs. at 5' 7” so it is the fact that the boards are taller than I am by over 2 feet and they weigh almost ½ as much as I do.

And now I am going to get off of here and give my little girl a bath so that I can put her to bed soon and soak my sore muscles in a hot bath. Tomorrow will be even longer because I have to have my daughter at school by 8am then pick my mom up and take her to the school for career day followed by a Halloween party then off to work with the fiance again so that I can come home and do it again. It has been really nice here today weather wise, maybe if my daughter gets a good report tomorrow we can take her to the park after work.

been a buys week.

I have worked most of the week this week with my boyfriend doing drywall.  I was layed up for a few days due to a migraine headache which i get often.  Friday night we let our 4 year old stay next door with her best friend so that he & I could go to the haunted houses and out to dinner.  On our way to the 2 haunted houses we wanted to go to, I won 4 tickets off of a radio station to go to a different haunted house. We are still unsure weather we will go or not. We hate letting our little one spend the night anywhere. I don't have the apron strings that tight. However, if she is away from us, we miss her and that is 1 full day we miss of watching her grow up.  She is actually spending the night with another friend of hers tonight and the house is really quiet and boring. We don't get sitters alot for the simple fact that we'd rather not get a sitter just so we can go out, we'd rather take her to the park to play then maybe grab a pizza or a happy meal on the way home.  Okay, now I will quit babbling because this journal idea of mine has turned into a lonely momma's pity party for tonight.

changes in life.

I am currently sitting in my father's living room working on my homework.  I was staying with my friends in that busy house but the truth is that I miss my mother and I can't see my daughter from where I was.  So, I will be moving back to Ky this thursday.  Keep in mind that my daughter is not biologically mine.  However, she is almost 5 years old, I have been there since she was just barely 2 years old and I am the only mom she has ever known.  I  am really excited that I will get to see her thursday evening when I get back to KY.  She has already called and asked if she can take a bath with Mommy when I get back into town and I am really looking forward to that.  Her father and are still friends and we have agreed that it is best not to have her calling different women Mommy throughout her life, so I am it.  I will stick around and love my little girl for the rest of my life.  I don't believe that I could ever love a biological child of my own any more than I love her.  She is the light of my life and the only reason I started going to college.  She likes being in beauty pageants and they are good for her.  I went back to school so that I could afford to let her stay in the pageants so that the pageants will pay for her college.  She has already won her first pageant and has $500.00 towards her college.  Well, I am tired and rambling so I am going to say goodnight.

initial entry

I have decided that I will use my blog as a journal in my day to day life.  So it only seems fit that this entry should look over my events for the day.  First of all, I pretty much slept my day away today since I didn't bother getting out of bed until 1:30 this afternoon.  I got up, smoked a cigarette, then took my morning shower.  After I got done with all of my morning routine, my friend and I went for a 2 hour walk just to enjoy the beautiful weather.  After we got back to the house I sat and did alot of homework that was due today by 11pm.  My evening consisted of cooking dinner for myself, my boyfriend, and my friends 5 kids.  I guess I should have mentioned that I live in a large house that is full of people.  I live here with my boyfriend, my best friend, her husband, and their 5 kids.  My friend had somewhere to go with another friend of hers this evening.  I spent my evening cooking and feeding everyone.  Then me and the oldest 4 kids sat down and played board games until 8o'clock this evening when I put them all to bed.  My friend came home, then I was able to go to my room where I have already began my homework for the new week.